why are we judged by our doings, 
not being?
how can I be so satisfied with sitting in front of this terminal instead of ... ? 

what is wrong with me being satisfied? 
why does it make me unsatisfied? 

is _ this _ work _ or _ leisure (if I suffer?) 

i just finished reading a transgenderistic (tg) story, story.tg 

it was really
breaking 
boundaries
but
creating them
even more I'm afraid.
 
it feels like it's time to re-fresh. all these colours. and come tomorrow being just the same old me. rebirth unchanged.